I need to get the fuck out of here.

Without the guilt

Of anybody.


-Disneyworld?
-Beach?
-California?
-Mountains?

-Train?
-Ship?


Now that I have the means...


I don't have the will-power.

And I think she's a bitch for letting me do it.




fuck

I'm depressed, and stressed.
But I don't know why.

I don't know what's wrong;

But it sucks.


=/

While Anna gets into her school groove again, there'll probably be a long lull of my social life because of that. Bah. Damned... People... Finishing school.
But, perhaps the drinking plot between me and Bobby will happen, and we'll apply for the spring semester at CP.. Maybe.
Or we'll forget because we're too drunk.

My prospects of hanging out with people is dwindling...
But it makes me feel, somewhere inside, that I'll be meeting new people that I wouldn't have imagined talking to.

And Chrissy.
Gah.
She makes me feel like Sepia Tone would look great if you're not alone in the fall and winter.
It's a fucking fairy tale that could end in pieces,
But one that I'll cling onto until the fabric of time unravels.

So... If you get a call from me in the middle of fall or winter.

Just humor me.

I'm a lonely soul.

"So please be kind if I'm a mess."

I'll put this gently to me:
She's too fucking young for you.

He's too fucking young for you.

You have shit to do
They'll only get in the fucking way.

Get off your ass
Do something today.

Do something soon,
or you'll be forced to pay
A fee far too pricey
to realize that there's more fish in the sea








So I'll test the waters.

I only hope a deep-sea creature kills me before I drown.